Start 2022 good

So … at the end of 2021, I closed up things I didn’t want with this person I started a connection romantically. My feelings changed as I saw his responses to some shit, those were so unbearably uptight and self-centered. I won’t be able to see a person I care for being so passively ignorant. Also the basic issue that will never be sorted, like, EVER! Which is, he doesn’t smell good. I mean, medical help, dude! You can’t blame others for telling you the truth and accuse them being rude. They are saying 100% what they wanted you to change and trust me THAT NEEDED TO BE CHANGED if you want a functional social life! I don’t want to be snarky but I just don’t think he’ll ever change and I don’t want to be committed to bad smell. I saw him reacting to whom told him that he smelled bad and I don’t want to be “rude", too. I just left. Maybe for him it’s sudden and abruptly, but I just don’t think our takes on self-awareness are compatible and I don’t want to spend my life arguing about this.

And then I met another guy, we’re never on the same page, when he wanted to mingle, I wanted to keep distance, when I wanted to dance, he shut me out. And like every unpredictable men, he’s always the victim. I was always the cold-hearted woman, he’s always hurt, and whenever he’s being obscure, ofc he could pretend that didn’t happen and just pick up where we’ve left. I FUCKING DON’T WANT TO PICK IT UP! So I told him I was dating someone who I really enjoy being with and will stop seeing other men, because, he vanished over 1 month and decided to just show up and pretend it was natural how things ended. IT WAS ENDED CUZ YOU VANISHED DUDE! Take at least 2 teaspoons of responsibilities of this please. Jeez! What he said next really just confirmed that he’s the opposite of a keeper. He said “Understand, I am, too. (dating someone)"

THEN WHY THE FUCK YOU’RE STILL MESSING AROUND TEXTING YOUR PAST DATES?

What does it say about you?

And even if he’s boasting to save face or make me feel bad, that would just prove that a person’s age doesn’t necessarily match their level of maturity. He’s over 50 for god’s sake.

And I don’t feel bad at all. If anything else I just feel good that I get to see him better and kick him out of my life.

So, I’m dating this amazing guy.

He’s the positive power in my recent life so I won’t go into details here as this seems to be full of shitty experiences. Also I’m sleepy.

*He made me listen to Boyz II Men “I’ll make love to you" all night.

**No no, he didn’t force me. Just he’s really making me happy and feel that way when we had sex.